Many years ago, during the tender age of eleven and twelve, I used to see the African sunrise out of my window. It wasn't because I was in Africa, but as I lay in bed, before getting up to watch Saturday morning cartoons, the view outside my window looked something like the picture below.
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African Sunrise |
No, I didn't see the view just once but several times, and each time I see it, I prayed asking God if this was the calling He had for my life, to one day see the real African sunrise. As I gain more experience living life in this world, I have come to realize how much less I come honestly before God and pray about where He wants to lead me. As a child, I had a lot more faith in God to lead and guide me, but now, in the midst of transitioning from a teenager to a young adult, I find that I listen more to my own logic and reason than what God has to say.
Now as a sophomore in college, it is almost time for me to make the decision of the route I want to take in life, in terms of my career. I need to admit this is a very tough decision, especially for a girl who tend to doubt herself and have a hard time letting go of her own plans because she wants to live a semi-comfortable yet exciting life. As I shared this struggle in my small group this past week, my leader shared a passage from the Bible with me, which really spoke to me despite its familiarity.
"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:31-34
Looking back at my life, there is so much that God has provided me with. Just as I have to come back to the Cross each day and remind myself of how much God loves me by sending his only begotten Son to suffer and die for our sins, I have to remind myself each day God is faithful and He will provide for me.
I am not sure if waking up each morning under the African sunrise is what God has called me to do, but I have faith that God will lead me to where He wants me to be and that will be the best plan for my life because He is my Creator and He knows me best.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6